Kiss the wind .

20th May 2012

no one will ever understand how it feels to be me.

20th May 2012 | 1,945 notes

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Have i ever mentioned how much i hate 8 am classes? It just drains you so fast throughout the day. I woke up and practically rolled/crawled myself out of bed. Plus it was raining and the weather was telling me to skip 8am class. But no, im a good girl and i obediently showered and ate breakfast before leaving home.

Morning commuters are the most annoying bunch of people you can ever meet. One, they will practically stand rooted to their spot despite the throngs of people trying to get into the not so crowded bus. But because of those ignorant selfish people, everyone has to wait for another bus. Two, they will push you. No matter how much there isnt anymore space, they will push you till they get into the train. Three, they just annoy the hell out of me.

I arrived slightly late for CSW class. Genie came into class late too with a shoe that deserves to be thrown away haha. So she and Jess left for Clementi mall to buy a new pair of sandals after the class. We had another lecture at 11.30am and it was about lifts.

After that, did our own work in the studio and helped out abit with the class massing model then left to meet baby for lunch. I had spring chicken with rice while his was bbq chicken. The food tasted nice and it was quite cheap hehe ^^ we had ice jelly cocktail for dessert and it was gooood (Y)

Had a really fun time with baby today. I was so tired but yet he always lifts my spirit and made me forgot all about work and being tired. He made me laugh so much today and gave me quite a few heart attacks too. Naughty boy >:)

17th May 2012

Lazy Day

Knowing that you have no school the next day feels great. Just sleeping without expecting to wake up at a certain time. The morning i woke up, i felt like i’ve slept for days. And as usual, i got a little confused to what day it was today and tried to recall what i did yesterday. Had half-boiled eggs for breakfast and peanut butter bread. I love eggs. I feel like eating cereal for breakfast tomorrow. But i have 8am class tmr :(

Sometimes i wonder how relatives and family members can be so close to you. I dont know, i’ve been detached with my relatives and family my whole life that sometimes i get jealous of people who are really close to their family. Honestly, i’m more comfortable with my aunts and cousins from my mother’s side of the family, but just some of them. I don’t know why i cant click with people very well. I just dont like being around too many people. It makes me uncomfortable and i feel left out. Like when my uncle tries to talk to me, i awkwardly try to answer their questions without sounding stupid.

So after breakfast, attempted to do some research for the precedent studies and i dozed off after an hour or so. Woke up, and baby was already awake and getting ready to meet me with his sotong masak hitam dish that his mom cooked (: i loooooooveeeeeee that dish so much i can eat it everyday!

Met baby under my block with my sports attire and gave him the letter i wrote to him for our 8th month together. Initially, i wanted to post it to his house address but i didnt know where to get stamps plus i have an irrational fear that the letter might get lost somewhere and he would never have read it :/ so i did some light exercises at the exercise station to train my weak body and get back into shape. I’m so fat now that it gets depressing sometimes.

We went to fetch budak gemok from school just now and tried looking for the lime my mum asked for me to buy. Couldnt find it at the shop near my house so baby just sent me and ain home and he left :( poor baby was hungry halfway when he got home. I should have forced him to eat dinner at my house till he got angry at me but i just dont like making him angry. I dont like anger in general. It scares me.

Got home and ate the aglio olio my mum cooked. There is nothing that she cant cook and everything that she makes tastes heavenly. Except that its spicy and i know a certain smelly boy who doesn’t like spicy (: And Tangled was showing on tv! i love that movie! those type of happily ever after movies with magic and all. Makes me believe that happy endings do exist and im a long lost princess :P

So currently i’m skyping with baby and he showed me more karaoke videos and pictures of himself back in the day when he was still a small boy (: Even though they were just a few minutes of video recording, it’s nice to see how someone, whom you love so much, looked and sounded before we even know of each other’s existence. It lets me see a glimpse of his past and his old self.

I regret not taking pictures when i was younger. If only i captured those old moments in school and i would be able reminisce in the near future. Now i can barely remember my my younger days. Because i was not the outgoing friendly type of person but one who sits in class alone during recess to study. And because i couldnt fit in and click with anyone. I dont know, they just didnt like my nature and awkwardness. But i was lucky to find people nearing the last years of secondary school, who share the same outlook on life as me and accepted my ‘uncool’ nature. And then i wasn’t alone in class during recess anymore. Now i have someone to love, and someone who loves me back (:

15th May 2012

Sleepy Tuesday

I woke up in a blank state of mind in the morning after sleeping for only 1 hour. Baby never fails to wake me up in the morning. Hearing his voice the first thing i wake up, is total bliss. The deep, coarse yet soothing voice urging me to get out of bed and get ready for school. But i fell asleep as soon as i got off the phone and got awoken by baby’s call again. It took me a while to register what day it was today what i was supposed to do. I just sat on my bed for a good 15 mins and then snapped back into reality.

Okay, so today is Tuesday and i have to go to school. I better shower now or i’ll be late

In the train ride to school, i looked through the old pictures in my tab, trying to recall what i forgot. Pictures, they bring back my memories. Sadly i don’t have many pictures of me and my dear boy in my tab. He doesn’t like to take pictures that much. But it’s okay, he’s my cute and shy little boy (:

By the time i reached school, it was close to 1. Seeing my classmates doing work made me feel a sudden realization that i have alot of work due on 28 May. And i’ve barely started. So i did a bit of research on what buildings i should do my precedent studies on and i managed to come up with a list. There was another HTA lecture at 1:30pm about Futurism during Modernism. It was quite interesting.

Aflter the lecture, i went to COLOURS with Genie and Krista. I’ve lost my bottles :( So i bought a mineral water and went to fc2 to buy curry chicken with rice. After filling my fat tummy, we had to leave the studio for the Personal Grooming Talk. Didn’t want to attend some talk that unnecessary talk but our attendance were taken by the lecturers. So haiz, just sat in the lecture theater for about 2 hours. At least can get 2 CCA points! Before going home, there were some free refreshments so i grabbed an apple tea packet drink and curry puff and left school for home.

It was a lonely ride home and i fell asleep immediately after getting a seat in the crowded train. Got woken up by a kick of a baby who was sitting beside me. He was so cute! I played with the little boy abit and he liked to hi-5 me. The baby also kept putting his cheeks against mine and he wanted to stay behind with me even when they had to alight. Someday i’ll have my own little baby boy in addition to my smelly boy that i already have <3